From Journal

I realized last night while catching a ride with my cousin and husband that I didn't want to be doomed to work a job that I didn't find appealing to my lifestyle. My cousin's husband has been working the same job for as long as I knew him. Working during the graveyard hours. For me its hard to grasp, then I took a look at my life and the job that I'm working and a sudden panic arises. Why? Why do we get stuck? I don't want to be stuck, but reality is that I am stuck.
I'm still currently trying to fit the pieces back together. Gathering my dignity, or what's left of it from a failed relationship, failed business endeavors, just a long period of failure.
My connection with God has been hazy for a long time. My spiritual journey has yet to unfold completely. But I have found an astounding fact about myself which is that I am in fact on a journey towards self discovery and spiritual enlightenment. I continue to pray my journey is directed in the right path.
I've been neglecting my health for a long time coming. Getting into shape poses a big challenge for me as I'm not too great with commitment. So I countered this aspect of my life with spiritual grounding, the substance that I am most likely to relate too.
So the idea is to be organized and prepared and to be open minded. Focus is the key element of this year. Focus with slight obsession.'>Note: Sitting in the coffee shop in