Spiritual Crash...

Woke up in the morning riding on roller coaster
Midway to heaven, half way to hell

Words are not perfect enough to justify the climax to bliss
At the top of the list of drugs and stimulators that you think I'm on
I can tell you right now I use none.
But damned, it feels like ecstasy hyped off a coke line or two.
Judge me, I don't care, that's a part of my life that you will never understand
Just be fortunate I decided to share
To the things in my life that I couldn't make sense of
It was a coping mechanism of a time I was walking in the dark looking for the light switch
Suffocating in a coffin nailed in at it's four corners


Paralysis of the brain, and cardiac arrest to the soul of a Goddess in distress
Dying a little more every day, drowning in an ocean of emotion
I just can't come to terms to express these feelings because it's a big mess
So I sit in my room alone in the silence when the sounds slow it down to a stand still
A blasting screeching in my ears
Heart racing, sky rocketing to kingdom come
Fast forward, rewind, play back scenes 
Flashback premonitions of invading dreams 
Natural high raging through my veins 
Insomniac hyperactive shit keeping me on alert 
High sensitivity to light and sound and smell and touch
Now hitting bliss and ready for the major crash out


And what goes up must come back down
It it feels something like this
dousing yourself with gasoline and setting you on fire 
And burn you will on your way up
Building momentum and energy
Blast off into oblivion, now in space mode
Heavenly disaster, like being touched by God himself
Then the wings ripped from your back as you make your final decent 
Down, down, down, falling to hell 
Burning on the way back
Ashed and burn out till you hit the ground 
Face first in the dirt, everything crushed 
Feeling like you want to die but you know you can't
So I just sit here, soaking it all in
Waiting for the next inspiration flame
Motivation to keep moving on.
Taking it a day to day...